cutting

why would I want to cut myself? Would cutting and slashing my skin really release some of the pain that I have in my body? Luckily for me, my room is a total mess and I have no idea of where my keys are at (I have a knife thingie on the keychain). I haven’t seen my cell phone either for that matter, although I think that I stepped on it last night trying to get out of my room to go pee. I wonder if it is O.K.?