Daily Archives: February 24, 2003

O.K. Made plans to se Mew tomorrow in San Jose. Started work on the astrological pages that Eric wanted me to do for him. Tomorrow, I’ll get his astrological info from The Secret Book of Birthdays. Room is cleaned. Still need to upload the few pictures that I took this weekend, but I think that I will wait until after I see Mew. Need to call Columbia House about my account. And hopefully, the Mechwarrior 4 that Kurt bought for me will arrive. Now, I am going to try and read some of the books that I still have from the library,
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On day, I swear I will take off the “Cam is off” sign before I turn on the web cam.
Anyway the cam is on, but I have to go outside to talk to Mew on my cell. Will be back eventually.
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Quote from this weekend:
Guy#1 – “Don’t think about her, you are better off without her.”
Guy#2 – “Yeah, if she can’t realize what a great guy you are, then good riddance.”
Guy#1 – “Although, I have to say, she did have some nice curves on her”
Guy#2 – “Yeah, She had the curves in the right places, very pleasing to the eyes”
Yes guys, she did have some excellent curves on her.
Anyway, I must have been either really tired or I am getting a taste for wine. Usually, I can’t stand the stuff and can only handle one glass before I am out. But this weekend I held my own. It could have been all of the small glasses that I had though.
Got a jury summons today. I could have sworn that I just did this a couple of months ago. **sigh** If Tim hasn’t left by then, I guess I’ll go ahead and do it and save my postponement until later. The last time, I didn’t get picked, but stayed at city hall almost all day long.
O. K. going to get some more soda (bad Joe) and then clean my room and get some stuff done. Also need to call Mew; she’s in town and I think that I’m going to visit her since I’ve missed all the other times she been in the area. It’ll wipe out the money that I was trying to say, but if I don’t I think she might get offended since I drove up to see Barry/Gabi/Kurt/Lesa.
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I missed the Grammy’s last night, but I’m glad that Nora Jones won so many of them and that Avril Lavine got shut out. John Mayer is kind of a mixed bag for me; his songs are good, but everytime I see him in an interview, he comes off so arrogant that I just want to punch his face in.
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Slow day at work; also boss is sick, so I am updating from work. I got some project that I need to do, however I am waiting to see if their are anymore deliveries commng in today. Mark called and needed the day off to finish some schoolwork, so I let him. Tim is still on vacation until tomorrow.
So, while I was up at Vacaville, I stayed up and talked to Gabi about me. She thinks that I should get out of here and go somewhere, anywhere, and spend some time discovering myself and to find out what makes me happy. It’s something that I don’t even know how to do; even if I did now, I don’t think that I could do it now. I blame everything on my financial situation, which is the truth. I can’t afford to do anything right now. I have $50 in my checking account, and nothing in my savings. I have been living paycheck to paycheck for the last couple of months and have been extremely lucky that nothing serrious has happened to me. In the future, all I can see are the bills that I have to pay; registration fee for the car, my website bill is comming up, security deposit for a new place with Mike, loans and bills, etc, etc. With all of that, how am I uppose to go out and find myself; find out what makes me happy?
**sigh** I think an addiction would make me happy right now. Alcohol, drugs, Everquest. I got an email from sony saying that they were going to give me a month free on my old EQ account. I could totally see myself zoning out an playing EQ all day and night long. However, and addiction is no solution to my problem (so I deleted the email, so I wouldn’t be tempted).
I think the best thing for me to do is to just keep myself busy so I don’t have to think about being happy. I need to find a second job to help me pay my bills quicker. I need to really start going back to the gym on a regular cycle, instead of every now and then. Need to work on project at home, like categorizing my photos, converting my website to be viewed on Geocities in case I have to give up my webhosting (Geocities **shudders**). Need to practice on paying my games, both Mechwarrior 4 and Diablo II. Need to get Moveable Type installed. Blah, blah, blah. In a roundabout way, I guess it’s avoiding the problem. I guess I do need to learn how to be alone by myself and to enjoy myself. (actually, I’ve been enjoying myself way too much lately, but I guess that’s a different topic) I should go and make an appearance on the camera and look like I’m working or something.
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