Daily Archives: August 29, 2002

I am slightly horny and I want some pussy.
Is that too much to ask for?
I’m sure it would help my headache.
Current mood: horny
Current music: 2Pac, Dr. Dre – California Love (original version)

At least everything is going smooth at work. I thought that we would be swamped with stuff, but we have done a really good job on being on top of things. Need to talk to one of the bosses and hit them up for some money to take my guys out. The new guy, Mike, is working out pretty well. The way him and Tim have hit it off, it’s like they’ve been best friends forever. Anyway, with all of the chaos going on at the store, it makes me appreciate working at the warehouse even more.
So, there’s a four day weekend looming on the horizon, and I have nothing planned. I wanted to go see Dan & Jen & Drake, but I worry about the gas it would take to get there and back. I guess it a good time to clean the house from top to bottom. Mike thinks that he saw a cockroach in the kitchen the other day. I’m annoyed as it is at the fact that we have almost every other bug in the house from silverfishes to mosquitoes. Roaches and ants are the two bugs that I can’t stand. It doesn’t help that Mike is kinda messy….alright, so I haven’t been too clean in the kitchen either or in my room. I’m still pissed about spilling food all over my mattress. **sigh** I just paid the damn thing off too. I wish that we had TV reception in our house; then I would eat downstairs. Even if we had a radio downstairs, that might keep me at the dinning room table to eat my meals. But we don’t, so I come up to my room to eat, where I have my computer and my radio at. (I’m kinda pissed that Mike didn’t crack and get cable. I thought he would have gotten it before school starts. Now that he has classes again, I doubt that he will have any time for TV. Damn!)
Speaking of Mike, he just got home. He wants to do something with me this weekend. He said that he would take me out to Cold Stone Creamery. I told him no. I am tired of people paying for me. I mean, Suzanne bought me groceries with the money I gave her for the loan/gift she gave me (now that’s a tongue twister), Dad’s paid for my plane tickets for thanksgiving, Mew paid for my tickets to see her in Oct., Tim bought me lunch 3 times this week, and Barry was going to give me money for BART, but Mia drove me all the way home, even though she lives in Oakland.
Not that I am ungrateful or anything. I truly appreciate my friends helping me out and stuff. I know that they know that I would do the same for them. I just guess I like doing things on my on and by myself, without any help. Just the prideful, arrogant, bastard that I am.
Current mood: still have a headache
Current music: George Michael – Father Figure

**sigh** Just got paid and it is already gone. Have to pay rent, put some gas in my car, do laundry, and buy some groceries. I will def. have to cancel the donation that I was suppose to make for the Police Rodeo thing. Can’t wait for the police harassment to commence.
I told myself that I wouldn’t bitch about money anymore cause I am the one who got myself into the place that I am. I knew that I would be buying a car sometime this year. And I should have thought about paying $925+utlis compared to paying $825 incl. utils. But I really wanted to get out of the situation with Justin and I thought that I could survive on a much lower budget than I was used too. So I am going to try to focus on not complaining about it much. I will have to just wait for six months when my review comes around. Even if I be a wuss and chicken out of asking for a higher raise, at least I will get a 5% bump, which will help me out. And then, next May, the lease will be up here and I can move into a place that I can better afford. I am still toying with getting a second job, but I really doubt that will happen.
Decided against reading the Elvis Bio, instead I am reading the vampire novel, A Feast In Exile. Not too far into it, but it is a good read so far. After I am done with this book, I will have to try and find the first book in this series. I should be reading The Bible and looking for faith and God, but I’m not. I should be reading the bible, but I’m not.
Current mood: have a headache
Current music: Record of the Lodoss War Vol. 3 – Rain Of Stars (Insrumental)

Well, I finished the Richard Lewis autobiography. Hmm, well, I actually didn’t even finish the book. I don’t know what I was expecting. I always thought that Richard Lewis was funny and I loved his show with Jamie Lee Curtis, Anything But Love (Gawd, I feel like I’m dating myself with that one.) I had heard that he was a recovering alcoholic and stuff. I guess I was expecting something a little more upbeat. However, the title of the book is The Other Great Depression; so I guess I was warned. So the book just went ON AND ON about his alcohol, his fear of commitment, and his recovery. At the end, I was just skimming the pages and finally, I gave up with 20 pages left. That’s really odd for me to give up on a book like that. Usually, if I can’t get through the first 50 or so pages, I’ll stop reading it and come back to the book later. I did this with Robert Jordon The Eye of the World; the first time I read it, I couldn’t get pass the first two chapters. A couple of weeks later, I picked it up and next thing I know I have the whole series in paperback.
Anyway, there were some things in the book that made me think. For one, I wonder if I should become an alcoholic. I feel that my life is somewhat shitty, but it’s nowhere near rock bottom. Why not head for rock bottom? Once I hit it, I got no where but up to go. Actually, I would probably stay at the bottom forever.
Well, tomorrow’s reading looks like the Elvis biography. I hope it is a better read than tonight’s read.
Current mood: disappointed
Current music: U2 – When Love Came To Town