I wonder if I am being selfish in my relationship with Suzanne. I mean if I truly loved Suzanne, wouldn’t I want to change whatever about myself that she wanted me to change. Isn’t sacrafice the ultimate proof of love that one can make. I have changed some things about myself and have given up some important things just for her. If I really loved her, it should be so easy for me to give myself up to her and let her mold me into whatever she wants to. It should be easy, but for me it seems so hard to do. Why is it so hard for me to do this? Why can’t I just give myself up completely to her?
A 40-something rediscovering life in California