Mellow friday payday at the

Mellow friday payday at the warehouse. Outside the paint shop is having a vendor fair and BBQ. There are some FAT fucking steaks out there; just waiting for Peter and Mark to get here so that we can go over en masse. Amber and Hilda are also on their way out here, oh yay.
Talk to Mew and my brother in the last two days. They are both doing well, so that is good news.
I still feel like depressed crap. But I will just try to put it aside for this weekend cause I have too many things to do. Tonight I go to see Suzanne, tomorrow I try to finish all of my assignments for next week, and Sunday is the last day at the Ren Faire. We are going with Suzanne’s sister and her sugar mama, Judy. Actually Judy is a pretty cool lady, so it should be good times. But I dont really feel like going, but I have too, so I will try to put the depression behind me and put on an award wininng performance.
I keep thinking about a scene from Hard Boiled with Chow Yun Fat. In the scene, Chow Yun Fat is talking to the undercover cop and the undercover cop wants to build a house in Antartica cause “it is always light there and I am tired of living in the darkness.” I kinda want the same thing, except I want the darkness to surround me to protect me and to keep me warm and safe from the bright and cold light.
Acceptance.
**sigh** I guess te roller coaster has stop climbimg and it’s time for a drop
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