Playing with the directory search on LJ while waiting for Suzanne and her mom to show up. Actually, I should head to the ATM to get some cash. Anyway, it’s amazing at the number of people who have journals and haven’t posted anything. Make me wonder just how many active LJ are their.
That and the fact that there are 4 people in North Korea that are using Live Journal. Heh! Or the 46 users that are at the Vatican.
O. K. let me go to the ATM and pray for cash…
So I woke up and made the mistake of looking at the eviction notice and trying to figure out what happened. I have a couple of theories on what happen, but the overall fact is that on my original statement, they show that the rent was paid through May for my apartment. And no one let me know otherwise for this whole semester. I am not going to pay for a mistake on their part. **sigh** Well, I started getting all worked up again, and I almost called Suzanne to cancel for today. But instead, I went to the kitchen and had some Quakers Instant Oatmeal. Two packets of French Vanilla and one packet of Cinnamon and Spice. Yum, Yum, Yum!!! It was very calming and just what I needed. I still have the butterflies in my stomach, but I think I can operate normally.
Waiting for Suzanne to call. I hope she hasn’t been calling me on my home phone, cause the network is down (what’s new) and so I’m on Dial Up. I’m sure she’ll figure it out and call the cell. I think that I will take a shower and get ready anyway.
Current mood: aggravated
Current music: Listening to 95.7 on the radio
I think that the first major project when school is over is to transfer and condense all of my journal entries from my various journals into one journal. I also want to start work on a new web site. But I think that will wait until my new computer is done so that I can have access to a scanner and hard drive space.
side note….I had a thought a couple of days ago where I would go around and have people do photo shoots of me. Weird idea….
I also need to make some entries into memories. And I need to do this, and I need to do that. So much I think I need to do; we’ll see just how much will get done.
First things first, got to finish out this semester…
Current music: Madonna – Papa Don’t Preach
Well, it seems that the majority of my depression/panic attack is over. Hopefully after some sleep tonight, I will be O.K. for tomorrow. We are taking Suzanne’s Mom to the Taco Bell on the Beach in Pacifica. KFOG is also having their Kaboom fireworks thing going on; maybe we’ll hang around for that also.
Well the whole deal with the eviction notice and my rent not being paid is a mistake on either Financial Aid part or the Bussar’s part. But it is not my fault, because on my original account statement, it shows my housing being paid through May. I guess the thing was with finals and papers being due and stuff going on at work, and my overall depression….well, I think that I did say that any little thing would set me off. **sigh**
I was going to just drink my ass off tonight and feel sorry for myself. I decided not too at the last minute. So tonight was a sober night; I guess it was a concession to Suzanne since I wasn’t talking to anyone. I did talk to her a little while ago; passed her motorcycle test. Yay for her!
I would be such the addict if I let myself. Peter offered to take me out to get drunk and to get high tonight. I almost took him up on that offer, but something held me back. I think I would have just lost it tonight if I had went out. I don’t know, sometimes you do need a good drink or a hit to steady everything out, esp. if the shit is hitting the fan. But for me, I know that I would go overboard, esp with drugs. So for the most part, I stay away from them.
There are other addictions I have to avoid too. Like eating and shopping. I did finish off some cookies and had some Ice cream. But there were only a couple of cookies and I didn’t have that much Ice Cream. Too bad I’m not the type to starve myself, so at least I could loose some pounds.
I don’t think that I’m ready to sort things out yet. I’m just glad that it seems to be over and I can go on. Monday, I will go to financial aid and try to get this straighten out. And I have all next week off to work on papers.
Current mood: calm
Current music: Madonna – Live To Tell
No one is going to be catering to your needs today, so get up and do things on your own. You will find that there is little sympathy coming from others, and strong opinions are a dime a dozen. There is a great deal of gossip buzzing around that you may be tempted to join in on. Don’t be an enabler of this sort of behavior. It is only going to alienate you from others in the long run. Keep in mind, that today’s trine between the Sun and the Moon wants you to realize that other people should serve as a mirror and that you can only grow, if you analyze the projection carefully